Author of “A Little Bent Not Broken” & Creator of HolStar’s Phoenix Flow Mobile Services & Private Space Avail in Hervey Bay. My work comes with life lived experience, Raw, Real, & Unapologentic supporting others through all areas of Life Transitions, Personal Transformation, Emotional Healing, & Nervous System Regulation.
I’m Holly Fay, also known as HolStar, Miss Phoenix Fire or Holly Fkn Fay.
The Real Life – Forged Healing Guide, I didn’t just heal, I was shaped by the dark, tested by storms and forged by fire ignitng the Phoenix within and I came back with tools.
Now days I am a Holisitic Healer & Massage, a Writer, Editor, & the Publisher of “A Little Bent, Not Broken”, a raw, real, messy, unapologetic Autobiography.
Every experience has shaped the person I am today. My book shares my story, my healing work helps others discover theirs.
I’m a Mum of four neurodivergent legends.
I’m a Holy Fire Reiki Master & Animal Reiki Healer, Neigong Energy & Movement & Mindfulness Coach, Inner child – Shadow Trauma Work Coach, Kids Yoga Teacher, Breathe Work & of course again a life lived experience Healing Guide.
I’ve risen like the sun and like a phoenix every day because I have carried my own flame through ashes, storms, and setbacks, I’ve been through the dark and appreciate everyday I am not still back there, as it is easy for anyone to slip back into any old habits and ways.
I turn the pain into purpose and power, Rippling healing through life lived experiences and tools to help rebuild others.
Have a browse through the “A Little Bent Not Broken” page and have a read rather than me doubling up and repeating but like everyone I have a Story you may align with one way or another in a chapter.
Then came the body storms so much over the years too much to name here but the most life changing was a emergency brain surgery 2013, and later 2020 a car crash that perforated my bowel and left me needing life saving operation and a colostomy bag (stomy) kept me alive until the reversal.
The mirror taught me self-love that’s where my mirror work, self-trust, and shadow healing began it was internal work, the mirror showing me more then the external.
Life threw storms and bullshit heartache and pain, but writing always stayed.
I loved writing poems, scrapbooks, making handmade gifts, and classroom projects too messy, real, felt.
If I could feel it, I knew I was on the right track.
People kept saying, “Holly, keep writing.” I did, Along the way, I watched my words and life experiences inspire others some even tried to silence me or retell my chapters as theirs, to even having a recent ghost writer try to own it trying to flatten it into a textbook and make into something not theirs to begin with.
That lit the last match, I finished this and made it mine.
I want people to see how writing from the heart, Mind and your Soul, really does help heal so much we don’t even think is lingering or still affecting us.
It’s like pulling splinters out you didn’t even realise were still in you.
The pen doesn’t just write it actually moves energy, It brings the hidden stuff to the surface, names it, releases it, and turns it into something you can finally breathe around.
I love using it as a daily tool to chuck my junk and the relief it brings in what ever way it comes out on paper. Somedays it’s messy, Somedays it’s a poem, Some days it’s just one sentence that cracks you open, but it all counts, because everytime you let it flow, you are healing your younger self who didn’t get to grow up as easy as others did, your present self who has been carrying it, and your future self who deserves peace. It’s not about writing good, it’s about writing true.
These days plenty people use a thing called “gpt chat,” but it can’t tell your story, the moments that touched you, nearly broke you, and the one that made you.
But know this….
Phoenix work, Unapologetic, Unfknwithable, Imprefection but Fkn real..
My autobiography “A Little Bent, Not Broken”, has been out since May 2025, with more to come when aligned
Those detours led me to Reiki, Inner-child and shadow work, Mindfulness, Animal Reiki and birthed HolStar’s Phoenix Flow.
I turned a hard-won life into a toolbox that helps.
One hand holds my book and the other holds the work, with lived experience and a full toolbox, I’m here for you.
This isn’t just healing work.
This is movement I’m building from lived fire.
HolStar’s Phoenix Flow brings all this together from one place, real life, real tools, and the real intergration. I dont teach theory, I build spaces where people reconnect to their own strength and choose the tools that fit with them and igniting whats already inside them.
This is real work, sanctuary work and this is Phoenix work this it’s rising your own way from t7h7e inside out.
Dear Younger Me, Miss Little Holly, the grinning baby on the hip.
You didn’t know it yet, but them eyes were a sign of a future compass.
This photo always held the answer with that hand signal rite there too somewhat being a part of the story.
I look at it and literally it was meant to be, I was never born to be broken, I was just in training.
I kept your spark, grew it into a blaze like the north star and with every storm since proved it, not broken but forged and I still wear the crown you deserve. “A Little Bent Not Broken”
Love Always Your Older Self.
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I’m still a student of my own life. Healing doesn’t have a finish line, so I keep learning, growing, and going deeper within myself. Every layer I meet helps me understand others with more truth and less judgement.
In February, I step into Kahuna Massage Practitioner training as part of my own body learning and expansion. I don’t collect skills, I follow the places that ask me to grow.
My work evolves from lived experience, body awareness, emotional depth, and the courage to meet myself honestly.I don’t work from theory, I work from what I’ve lived, faced, and walked through.
A big part of this healing journey is meeting the younger and older versions of ourselves.
The one who went through it,The one who survived it and the one we are still becoming.
We only live this life once.
Healing is how we stop running from our past and start walking forward with all parts of us and not leaving the younger self behind, and not losing the strength the older self has earned.
This work is about bringing those versions together, so you stand in the middle…
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